[i'm never gonna know you now, but i'm gonna love you anyhow]
i am awake. i feel good. i haven't eaten real food since tuesday and before that... who would ever know. it was a salad, lettuce, tomato, mushroom and onion sammich on toast. at the diner. the diner. i feel good about that. because i'm not hungry. i am going to colorado for spring break. ryan is there now with b so i will be in good company and if ashley hangs out often... who knows... maybe it will be an entirely enjoyable trip. [fucking pagan] i still feel good. this is amazing. i've written about how i feel good three times so far. feeling good feels great. fuck. anyway.. nick and i went to michaels today to shove some paints and supplies in our pockets.. bought a canvas... on our way out the door our cashier came after us calling, "miss! miss!" we didn't turn around right away. we only forgot one of our bags. when we arrived back at the car we laughed about it. i came home and did some sketches. i was falling asleep finally... i had an annoying dream. my phone kept vibrating every 10 minutes because i had a voicemail and in my dream i was trying to paint and i was waiting for a phone call... every time the phone really vibrated i woke up with my heart racing and a nervous feeling in my stomach. this happened for about 2 hours. the final time it happened my stomach was so knotted that it hurt. i felt like i was going to vomit. i fell back asleep and woke up at 2. i got zelda for the game cube today so i'll probably start that soon. i don't even have anything good to write in here. i have to make dinner friday and i haven't decided on what i'm making... i have to set an extra place, though. we might be going to camp this weekend, but i doubt it. maybe a 'shopping' trip. who can know these things. i am so boring. i never dyed my hair... i think i'm going to do that now.
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- posted by angela @ 3:09 AM