[stamped and waiting.]
and if you want to disappear,
so do i.
i want a friend in every state.
so i will see you soon.
i was awake yesterday. watching the light from the window move on the ceIling.
and he held my heart.
and i cried.
on thanksgiving i went to whole foods to buy food.
as i pulled out of the parking lot there was a homeless man.
the person i was with said, 'we should go buy him dinner.'
another person i was with began saying something about how he had twelve or so piercings when he was younger and still had a job that kept a roof over his head and food.
so why can't a homeless person get a job is what i assumed he was getting at.
then a conversation about how a homeless person outside a chinese restaurant was begging for money because he was starving and when someone tried to take him in the restaurant to buy him dinner he refused. first saying he didn't want chinese and finally admitting that he just wanted money. not food.
and something about food and shelter being the only thing you need.
and i found myself saying these words.
that's not what jesus said. he said love god and each other and he will provide.
it went something like that.
and no one replied.
i wonder if that homeless person would have taken the food.
i tried to give a homeless man left overs in denver and he wouldn't take it. he didn't like pasta.
i want to figure this out.
i want to leave.
and i don't know at all where the jesus thing came from.
i opened my mouth and that's what came out.
- posted by angela @ 10:01 PM