[i hated that post.]
i published my blog this morning around seven fifteen. the post was entitled 'i'll be your mirror' and the first lines were 'i really can't write what i have in my head. if i did that, this blog would probably self destruct. if i wrote about my sudden happiness, my words of despair might fade.' the rest was about how i live and that i will continue to do that. for a little while at least. and some about how the morning reminds me of how much i love the night. and some more lame crap about my childhood. my mind hasn't changed. all of that stuff was probably good enough, but i just hated it. i guess it will take some time for me to get used to feelings of prosperity instead of constant demise. last night. a very good night.
1. kevalin was here. and al and craig were with her. and she called me wifey. it was great to see her and catch up.
2. tom is going to fredonia for the next 104 hours so we pushed our movie night forward. he came over at around eleven. we ventured to the video store where all my requests were shot down and nick was able to weasle his way into getting the worst/best movie i saw yesterday. [make sense?] code 46. we decided to give nick another chance because none of us were tired and eventually he proved how useless he is at picking out movies when he first tried to sneak swordfish in the dvd player. when we finally gave up, seabiscuit was beginning. tom and i commented often on how poor the movie was. tom exits house without a word at around five am and nick goes to sleep.
3. no.
-and it's morning...
4. i open the ibook and keep tom from sleeping for about another hour.
5. close ibook and decide to finish the evolution box set. i left off on the evolutionary arms race. i found the sexual expression section fascinating and then peeeeeed.
6. while washing my hands i realized that something was in my eye. and it wasn't just a hair or piece of thread from some fabric... after scrutinizing for about an hour i finally discovered a piece of glass in the left side of my pupil. another hour of trying to get it out went by. it came out. my eye is a little sore.
7. pluck eyebrows, do some skin cleansing and jump in the shower. shower had limited hot water and parts of me were numb when i decided that not all showers can be great.
8. started the ending of evolution. got as far as modern humans and paused and opened the ibook.
9. overstock.com stopped entertaining me when i only found around 20 pairs of shoes that i might even consider liking.

it is now two thirty. everyone is going somewhere. i am not moving. i probably wont sleep. i am going to dye my hair soon. it's hard for me to express to him what bothers me all the time. maybe this will work - i am entirely bored with life. the only new things that enter my mind are creative ideas and lack the materials and talent to express them physically. i am off topic. i am done for now... because i am smiling again and happy and that is not appropriate for this blog.
- posted by angela @ 2:35 PM