[you might sleep, but you'll never dream. onward! progress! or so it seems. you might laugh, but you'll never smile. come on in and waste away awhile]
well, i dream. i finally slept all night. this is because i was up for about 22 hours yesterday. i'm not feeling exactly healthy. i might have seen someone not alive last night in the foyer, but now that i think about it - it was probably from lack of sleep. when i slept, i had some pretty crazy dreams. no use getting into them, but i definitely spoke to that fictional character... he's in all those stories... what's his name again.... oh yeah! jesus. he kind of took over one of my dreams and faded into my view around a pond and tall grass. he told me i don't want to live because..... and i couldn't make out anything else. dreaming is a pretty important thing in my life. it comes from how much i value sleep. so, obviously, you can see how much this dream would bother me. i don't need to be talking to made up people in my dreams. it was especially strange because now that i think about it... he looked a lot like... oh never mind.[something you should know before you read on is that i am fully aware of the fact that i'm dreaming when i'm dreaming and if i want to, sometimes i can go back to different parts of my dreams and re-do them] so, the most interesting thing about the whole ordeal was that when he was fading in i felt like my body was relaxing. i was calm. [the dream he interrupted was very intense.. i was doing a lot of screaming] everything felt almost numb and that is pretty astonishing for me because i am always in some kind of pain... and it doesn't go away when i sleep. so... jesus talked to me and made me feel all good and i saw what some people would call a ghost last night and my sleeping schedule has taken on something that resembles normal all of a sudden. fuck. i am becoming everyone else.
- posted by angela @ 1:19 PM