[i will surprise you sometime. i'll come around]
day off. relief. i think i'm going to denver today. when i wake up again. i just swallowed some diphenhydramine so it will be later tonight. makes me pee like i'm drunk. i can't take b1 out of the cd player. my cake is a hit. i kicked out six leads today. i'm turning into a machine. here's my schedule:

7am-2pm telephone
2pm gnar around the house
3pm sleep
10pm wake up
10pm-12am watch people walk in and out and talk to me
12-5am grocery store/talk/love
5am-7am art/goofiness/just staring at everything and nothing
and the whole time i listen to music. i forgot to do that for most of this year. and it feels good.
my life.. is good probably.

i've been missing things a lot lately, though.
i have a big long list...
i guess the biggest thing would be standing on the roof of the roseland in new york watching the sunset.

or car rides and conversations.
i hope that when i die... the thing people will remember most about me is an awesome conversation they had with me.
er i don't know.
how sweet my hair was?

just kidding. i wouldn't say that life is more meaningful to me and i'm not so sure that it will ever take hold of a reason and surround it, but there's something in life that i'm seeing now that i didn't really see before. and this whole love thing... we'll see. well, you probably wont. but i'll figure it out sometime.
- posted by angela @ 6:12 AM