[confusion builds a fire.]
i don't know what it is. about this moment. but i like it.
two am. just woke up.
my day...
strange.
go in to work.
long. dell sucks. one of server fans blew up. pretty sweet..
gino likes kicking out wires. so i can refresh my ip eight million times.
video games. drink pepsi. take naps. [i get paid for it.]
home.
still haven't eaten.
still not hungry.
still not interested in other people speaking to me or around me.
fight with joe in the kitchen. not a real fight. brother/sister style.
hilarious. we actually hit each other when we fight. and hurt each other.
he's mex2. i'm the one who gets hurt.
sweet.
tomorrow we're having a knife fight in light of him moving.
anyway...
exhausted.
amazing music session in my room with my new speakers.
i seriously went through so much music i've been meaning to listen to.
ugh. terrific. just. really great.
black room. blue light. huge sound.
eight hundred blankets. it was cold as fuck, but i loved it.
i spaced for like... 5 hours.
fell asleep around eleven.
i had the longest most ridiculous dream ever that was ending really badly until joe woke me up.
the only time you can wake me us is when i'm having a fucked dream.
right now.. this second..
still in work clothes... hair is dancing all over the room other than near my head, still wearing my gloves from this morning, still no food, throat is sore and voice is gone, new emails to respond to, couch is full of warmth for me to climb in and watch a movie. alone style.
i purposely listened to sunn tonight.. [i usually do every night] but they're in philly tonight and i'm not. fly to balitmore tomorrow? yeah. okay.
fists.
missing conversation.
i refuse to talk to other people now. thanks.
i don't want to drive to the airport tomorrow.
i hate airports.
- posted by angela @ 4:12 AM