[for you a thousand times over....]
would you smile again for me?





most likely i am hung over.
okay. the past week or so couldn't be less vague... or spontaneous.
i'm fine with it.
i'm even dealing with the first weekend back in syracuse fairly well.
a recent philly trip that seemed to work out better than we could imagine for the most part.
four incredible days in nyc and a long depressing ride "home".
i would be there now if i could.
i'll be back in philly next weekend.
three weeks from now it will be home.
fantastic.
(phone ringing in bkgd)
i'm going to throw my phone away.
i'm making memories right now with the warm weather and wonderful people in my life.
and i can see it fading already.
like the bruises.
let it die.
haha. turmoil is playing today.
i really can't lie.
i'm starting to get the feeling that syracuse will be missed in some way.
some bizarre, comical way...
which is a perfect way to describe my life.
thank you.
so if you have time, friends, and want to see me before i disappear again, i don't say no to a warm night, wine and reciting lines from movies and tv shows...
futility wins.

i wont miss it that much.

... and there is nothing left to say
that has not been said...

i could stop doing that, but some things make so much sense to me right now.
and still so many things that seem pointless...

shaun has been on my mind constantly.
it's crawling all over my skin.
being back.
seeing them all.
2 years soon.
i don't remember a thing.

better off that way, i suppose...

i wonder if i'll make it home tonight...
- posted by angela @ 3:12 PM